Truth

A stunning moment of power and brilliance tonight, I need to find my truth. I have been drowning in the weakness of lies and it is literally killing me. I'm sick all the time. Exhausted, angry, bitter. I have turned my back on the one thing that is guaranteed to bring me the joy, confidence and brilliance that I am capable of radiating. I am not this person. I have been blaming everyone but myself for the truth I gave up so easily. Why would I or anyone else for that matter let go of something so precious. The only true power is in truth. I found a well of strength and control within me, it sprang out of anger, but exposed something deeper, that only I was able to see. I held on to a power and a resource that has been quiet for a long time. I thought that I could only be unhappy because I could not help someone to see that self care and self love build the strongest mutual love. I thought that meant I had to live without, the sense of strength and joy that I create within myself. I do not. I will not. I choose how I feel. I choose how profoundly others are able to affect me, I CHOOSE and because of that I hold the strength and power of my joy and that cannot be taken away it can only be given away. This time, I will not let it slip so easily from my fingertips. I have to work harder than before to hold onto that truth because I am surrounded by so much negative energy, I am loved by people who do not want to provide strength to themselves, I will get through it and it will get easier for me. I will not cower because someones weakness has turned them into a hateful monster. This is MY life and I will not be bullied anymore.